kiwis avec anger problems

It's been forever and an eternity since I've posted because I've been having trouble remembering my dreams for quite some time and the dreams I do remember? Too lazy to post. :( But here is the dream of last night:

I decided to go pick Lisa up so we could hang out. So it turned out my Wii remote was a broom? And I started to fly it, but she was just down the street and I flew through like 3 lanes of traffic, the street was huge and then it turned out the broom was too small for her to get on too and so we had to walk. We ended up in the big old house where there were lots of preparations going on for a party.

All I can remember was that we needed to get a going on. I think at this point she turned into someone else, not sure who. We went into a small room on an upper floor so we could apparate, but all these little kids surrounded us--they wanted us to show them some magic and I tried a patronus, but failed. I made flames instead. The person who was with me now didn't know how to apparate, so I had her grab onto my arm and get ready for side along apparition.

Then someone died, and I pretty much lost my mind with sobbing. Everyone else that was with me cared, but they assumed that I must not have seen a dead person before because I was losing it. I guess because they had died, we were supposed to stay, but I had to leave. And I realized that instead of a wand, I had an umbrella. I apparated to a decrepit building in the city where there were 4 other people, one from each house. And they all had to kill themselves?

So I remember taking each of them up to the room where they were going to die. The last person I think was in Ravenclaw, and I was trying to talk him out of it. We went upstairs to an apartment with the stairs to that floor missing, I think we flew up there. There was an old matress on the floor and a coffee table in the sitting room with some chairs. He asked me to read him "Sadako and the Thousand Paper Cranes" and I said I couldn't because I was crying too much. I really liked this kid. He told me I had to and then I had to shoot him afterwards. But then we saw this out of it guy sitting in the corner of the room, and for some reason, that changed his mind.

And then I woke up. Yeahhh.

I had a dream a few days ago that was unusually trippy. Here's how it went.

I was just barely awake. I woke up in my bed and I was...fucked up. Different parts of my face kept growing and shrinking and I was floating up on my back through the roof. I said I hadn't taken any drugs before bed, so what was wrong with me? I then thought that I wasn't awake, that I was sleeping, so I could sober up and act normal. But nope, I couldn't. I kept doing summersaults through the ceiling in complete darkness. Then I sunk back down through the floor and my bed...crazy.

Then I had another dream today. It was Halloween, I think, and there were bees covering my cul-de-sac. I had to run from the bees. I was running with another random man and the next thing I knew we were on a train trying to escape the bees. He said I tried to sleep with him last week, I said I must've been obscenely drunk because I didn't remember it at all. Then I remember trying to hide, but I ended up in a pumpkin patch with my feet sunk into the earth, thinking about becoming a vampire. At some point in this dream, I did a failed reality check--I stuck my finger through my hand and knew that it was a dream, but quickly forgot.

I had a second dream. I went to go watch the episode I missed of Grey's Anatomy, but I got sucked inside the TV. Then I was at the mall with someone. I told them I had no idea where I was but that I had been sucked inside the TV, she said we were at Fox Valley Mall. I was in this really tiny store that only catered to men. I ran out and I saw that Kris Roe was on the bottom most level, surrounded by people. I ran and I couldn't help it, I pretty much dived down there and I was right in front of him. I was so excited, he said he was gonna play us some music and I told him I was so happy that he made music. I saw another man behind him wearing the same purse as I was. I immediately became offended and I yelled that he was wearing the same purse because he had a gun in it and was going to kill Kris, and that he was going to frame me. I have no idea, but that's all I remember.

In this dream that I had last night, I was at school. It was French Club, and somebody told me that we weren't going Christmas Caroling because we couldn't get permission forms. Margaret kept trying to talk to me in French.

The next thing I remember was so different it might have been another dream altogether. I was with Matt and Dan from the Alkaline Trio (Hell Yes, biotches!) and I guess I was dating Dan? I don't know, we kept touching each other and laughing and dancing. We were all in a club. We left the club and went to this tiny, dingy diner. Dan and I went into the bathroom and the bathroom was bright pink. We were all over each other. Someone came in and told us the owner was looking for us. We ran.

Then we were in a car, and it was like a giant acid trip. We were driving through Chicago, only Erica was there now. The sky was all kinds of crazy colors and it felt like I was on a roller coaster. The buildings were so tall that at parts, they blotted out the sky. Then I woke up.

In some ways, it was incredibly real. I think a lot of it is just me wishing for an older guy to have a lighthearted relationship with.

Yeah, I know, it's been awhile. Between my dreams being scarce and me never having the time to write them down, it might seem I have abandoned the effort...but only slightly. ;p

Not last night, but the night before, I had some crazy dreams. I remember seeing Jared Leto, but he was all bloody and bruised. I was watching a movie in a huuuuge auditorium, with only about 7 people. Ms. Hennessy was doing body piercings and I almost got my eyebrow done, but I didn't want to miss the film.

Then, I had another dream. You came to my house to pick someone up. I grabbed your hand and said "Please, just treat me like a decent human being for once." You pulled your hand away and said "Not now," and then took the girl out. I watched you leave and then I went for a walk. That was horrible, but sometimes, I think my subconcious understands you better than I do.

And in last night's dream, I remember there was this underground concert for A Perfect Circle and a lot of people were there, but only my school. I was freaking out and looking for Natalie since I knew she loved that band. But that's all I can remember there.

These might have been the most normal dreams I've ever had.

It has been a long time indeed since I have posted. So here's what I remember from last night.

I remember being in this huge building. It was like an office building. And somehow, I knew I was about 20. But I couldn't remember anything that happened. In the middle of this room, a man was sitting with Mr. Newman. And I went over to the man, and he asked me if I remember what he taught the other day. He was a professor of mine. And I started freaking out, I was yelling, "I don't remember anything. I don't remember. Mr. Newman, what happened to me?" And neither of them would say anything.

So I stormed out of the room and into this long hallway. And I started picking up chairs and throwing them through windows. There were other people in the room, and all they said was "Please, look out for the glass." And I was so scared because I knew I was losing my mind, and I also knew that I couldn't have cared less.

It felt so real. Why am I always having dreams with my English teachers in them? At least this wasn't a creepy one.

It's been quite a long time since I last posted to my dream journal. Since my slumber has been disrupted lately, what with planning a certain someone's murder and school starting, here are some dreams that are maybe a couple of days old by now.

One of the weirdest dreams I've had in a while. I knew that I had wires running from my heart to my kidneys. Kara did surgery on me and put them in there. But something was going wrong and my body was not working as it should. But for whatever reason, obviously, going to the hospital was out of the question. So I had my brother and sister do the surgery.

I was surprised that they agreed to do it, but we were all really nervous since they had to cut me open on the basement floor. I told them they had to reattatch the wires to my liver. I stuck two eight gauge needles through my back, and it hurt so bad. But we were waiting for something before we could do the surgery. I was so nervous!

Well, I'm too lazy to write up any other dreams right now. Maybe later tonight.

I don't update this as much as I should, and as a result, my dream recall is worsening. ;x;

I know I had maybe, 6 dreams last night? There were a lot. But I can't really remember what happened in most of them. I'd need to find something to remind me, and I really should start writing down little reminders in the night so I'd remember earlier.

One dream I had was (not surprisingly) Harry Potter related.

It was like...at first, it was almost like I was playing with Barbie dolls or the Sims. I was rearranging furniture in a smaller house...it was so pretty! And I was controlling people, but in a much more real sense than the sims. The people were all related, I think there were maybe 4 girls and 2 boys that I was controlling. They were all dressed rather fancily.

And then I was sitting in the bedroom that I was designing. There was a packet of information on the floor that I kept pointing my wand at, I kept saying "Accio!" but it wouldn't come to me. Finally it floated over to me, but as soon as I got it, I became extremely thirsty. I think there was something nagging in the back of my head that this wasn't normal, but I never really realized I was dreaming. I did the aguamenti charm and I nearly choked on the water. But it was crazy, the water was so real!

Well, I've been practicing a lot at the WILD (Wake Induced Lucid Dream) and I swear, last night it paid off! I set my alarm to wake me up at 3:45, I got up, went to the bathroom and back to bed. I lied on my back trying to WILD for a long time, but I gave up around a half an hour later. So I rolled over onto my side.

Now, I usually tap my foot when I'm trying to fall asleep. But I was almost too tired to, so I didn't. As I was lying in bed, my whole body went completely numb and started to shake. I heard high-pitched whistling in my ears. At first I was really scared, but I remembered that this was supposed to happen during a WILD! So I took someone else's advice and just imagined I was flying through forcefields.

...I don't really remember what happened during the WILD though...! I'm so dumb. x.x;

But I did have another dream that night. Here it is:

I was on a school bus, but it had no windows and the seats were arranged in an odd pattern. It turns out I was actually in prison. The reason I was in jail was because I was with Erica and she was caught with an empty bag of heroin, but they put me in jail for it instead. I wasn't mad at her at all, she was more of an afterthought. I started freaking out because the bus was making me claustrophobic, so they had to transfer me onto another bus with windows. We were in some kind of a desert with a tower.

I saw my Aunt Bethy and I told her why I was in jail. So they told me they realized I was innocent, but couldn't release me because they were making a movie about the prisoners? I was so pissed. Mother fucker!

So Imma try WILD tommorrow too, and I will remember it. >:O

It seems I can't concentrate on lucid dreaming AND dream recall at the same time. This sucks because if I have a lucid dream...I can't remember it!

So I need to really focus on both. But in the mean time, here's what I remember of last night's dream:

I was in a room with all of the 'Whose Line is it Anyway' cast. Some woman had led us in there; I had a bad feeling. I knew we were locked in there so I tried opening a window and sticking something in there to keep it open. But someone shut it. I couldn't open it, it was too heavy. So instead I grabbed it and pulled on it downward with my weight and ripped it off?

Somehow I ended up in a airplane. It was like everyone on the airplane was hostage, we were all going somewhere we didn't want to go. I got up and walked to the back of the airplane where someone was passing out little pastries. I asked how they kept them cold and they said they put them in a magic cardboard case. We somehow managed to break into this spare cockpit in the back, and me and someone else started piloting the plane. The only thing was, we couldn't use the radar or else the people up front would know.

So we were trying to land the plane without radar, and it was sucky hard. Eventually the people up front found out but by that time we were running out of gas and really needed to land. We ended up on the highway. We had to go under an overpass and I was so afraid we weren't going to make it. But we did. But we couldn't land on the goddamned highway so we had to pull up. I remember running up the aisles and screaming to everyone to buckle themselves in. Christina was sitting next to me talking on her cell phone, I told her to buckle up and she told me to shut up and continued talking. I buckled myself in and we ran out of gas and crashed hard backward into the ground.

Fred and George Weasley were helping people get off of the plane. How strange.

Here's looking forward to some good dreams tonight!

Last night's dream! I know it's most effective to write down a dream as soon as you wake up, but I have a lot of problems with that. So here it is, more than 12 hours later. (Ooops.)

I've been having a lot of dreams with Eddie in them lately. This would be one of them.

There was a baseball game happening on top of our school roof. It was a major league baseball game, and tons of people were coming in to watch it. I was going to go watch it with my family, but then I remembered I was supposed to meet Eddie there. He flew in on a plane with his mom and we all went to the game. We had great, great seats on these massive white bleachers, but he didn't talk to me the entire time and I didn't talk to him. I remember I saw Randy there, he asked me if I would like to sit by him and I told him I couldn't 'cause I promised to go with Eddie. But I was really depressed; Eddie was (is? haha) an asshole.

So I ditched him and went downstairs. Only now, it was more like a shopping mall. I apparently worked at one of the stores. Tons of nailpolish and lipliner had fallen off of the shelf, and instead of just putting it back up there, I tried to buy it. The total was 13 something, and I didn't have enough money.

I really have to get into dream analysis.

I had at least one dream last night. Here's how what I remember of it goes:

I was freaking out because I had to go to my councilor's appointment. I wiped off a counter with a tissue, and then I tried to flush it down a toilet, but the toilet practically exploded! Just what I needed, god damnit. By the way, the toilet was like, in the middle of a field. What? Since Mom seemed preoccupied, I decided to walk there.

I think at some point on the way there I got lost in this giant mall. I can't really remember what happened, but I do remember at some point, someone was trying to kill me to stop me from getting there. I remember running faster than hell into a restauraunt and frantically trying to tell the waiter that someone was trying to kill me and that he had to help me. I think he tried to help me, but the people killed him. ;-; So then I knew that I had to just go with them...

That was it for last night. The night before I had a dream that I was in an inflatable hotel about 300 feet high, with a big center cut out of it. I kept falling over and over. Crazy. XD

So then, onto what I dreamed about last night. I'd like to note that I've had a lot of dreams about people dying lately.

The first dream, I only remember fairly vaguely. It was another Lost dream. I think that I dreamt Boone and I were dating. (Hey, it's a dream, I can fantasize if I want.) But then I think he got killed by a giant green tentacle beast. And nobody noticed but me! I was so upset. ;x;

The second dream was tres bizzare. I had just gotten my own car, it was a little red car. I guess I decided to commemorate the event by buying a gun--the gun was purple and blue. I think one night I drove to Wendy's with my dad, and before we got out of the car, I thought I saw something in the parking lot. But we got out anyway. And some crazy man attacked us! I think he pushed me into the back and took the driver's seat. He was pointing a gun at us and screaming, I started to argue back but I didn't want him to kill my dad. All I really remember was that he took my gun, gave me his gun, and ran away. I realized immediately that he must've taken my gun so that if anyone ever found it in connection to some evil crime, it would be registered to me and not him. Damnit. Part of what was so unusual about this was that it might have even been a dream, within my dream.
I can't remember. But I do remember that next, I was inside of some huge building trying to run from this man. But it was flippin' big, I had no idea where he was at. I came across my family who said that my Aunt Cherri and my cousin Kevin were killed by this man. I was standing here and kept asking "What?" because I couldn't believe it. I started crying so hard that I could barely see where I was running. I ran into Bobby Jo and Bobby Jean, and also my ex-boyfriend Eddie. What was funnier than hell was that he had all of these piercings, had shaved his head, had about a kazillion tattoos and couldn't have looked more gangster mexican if he tried. I almost forgot that I was running from some manic killer because it was so freakin' weird. I kept asking him what the hell happened, but he wouldn't even talk to me.
So then I remembered trying to tell him abuot the crazy killer on the loose and how he had killed my aunt and cousin, but I think he was only vaguely listening. Then the man was coming and we all (me, him, and the Bobbys) had to hide in this little triangular area above the girl's bathroom. The whole time I couldn't stop thinking about how if I had fought the man, my cousin and aunt wouldn't be dead.

So that's it! :x

This is Nicole's new dream journal. I figured all of my friends were tired of me posting about coked-out things, instead of actual entries.